I'm two cups into my coffee break.
I'm sitting alone in the café front way.
Reading all by myself.
I'm turning my cell off, just to breath,
Cause everyone I know just keeps calling me.
And I just need a little time.

Cause I've overcommitted myself,
I guess this is growing up.
I'm sleeping so little these days,
I guess this is growing up.
I'm feeling things are about to change,
I'm guessing this is growing up,
Yeah, I'm guessing this is growing up.

And my mom hates my guts.
She has every reason to,
For all the things I do.
And it breaks me just to know,
That I have torn her apart so many times, so many times

Cause I've overcommitted myself,
I guess this is growing.
I'm sleeping so little these days,
I guess this is growing up.
I'm feeling things are about to change,
I'm guessing this is growing up,
Yeah, I'm guessing this is growing up.

I don't wanna change, I wanna stay right where I lay
Eyes closed, head down on the pillow,
Better change, before it's too late,
I'm guessing this is growing up..

Now I'm done with my coffee break,
I turn on my phone, now that I've grown up.

-Coffee Break, Forever The Sickest Kids.

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I'm in love with Forever The Sickest Kids now. They've been stuck on my head for months. They got me sick of them. Ha.
And after my busy weeks, I found this to make my day. Old video, I guess. But I kinda love it.

Forever The Sickest Kids Battle of the Bands! FTSK FINALE!

Forever the Sickest Kids | MySpace Video


*will edit this post later on. I'm in hurry now*

Top five of what I really miss nowadays:

1. My junior high school life
2. My Junior High School and LIA friends, especially my best friends
   
3. My rest time. I have almost no much time to rest now
   
4. Cinemas. I want to watch movies, with popcorn and beverages. Oh my.
   
5. Everything makes me feel happy.

May I get them just now?

And there are so much more than these. I can't tell you all, it will be a very long list to make.

At the end, I'm really sorry if you think I seem like I make this just for update. Well, no. I'm a random right now and I can't think perfectly about what I want. Once more, sorry. From my deepest heart.

Hope you enjoy your weekend, Ciao!

I think I'm starting to be pissed of on my high school life. Too many problems I should face. And it's just like no solutions for all the problems.

I don't know, how could I get this feeling. It's like something suddenly came and ruined my self. This is more than only worse. :(


I don't want to make my teenage life seems bad. I want to feel the happiness of being teens. But it's not that easy. I don't know what should I do now.

Who can give me solution? :(

Not really. Because I haven't meet someone that required to be my soulmate, yet.  And I never thought I've got one. Since I even dunno that I have best friends or not -_-


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I actually want to share you something here guys. But please wait, I'm still searching for them xD

I wonder why there's no Writer's Block box on my LJ homepage. I was about need it. Yes, I got writer's block.

Let my fingers tell you everything then..

School starts tomorrow. Today is just the last holiday. Oh-my-oh-my-oh-my I even haven't ready yet with everything.

I have done almost  all my homework. I mean, all in messy way. I should clean them up.

My brain still want holidays. Even though, I think 2 weeks holidays were everything for me.

Blah blah blah. Sorry If this post is just mean nothing. I really do got writer's block. Damn damn damn.

Are you going to school/college too tomorrow? Hi-five for us then. Bye holiday!

Well hello people!

Guess what I've had here on my hands for the special day of Muslim: Idul Fitri.

I've got new wears and cookies here yahoooo!

I'm going to post some photos of new dresses and shirt and skirt my dad bought for me. And also, home-made cookies which just doe this afternoon by me and my auntie-cousin.


( Here we go, everything is under the cut ;) )


LMAO AT ME.



Well okay. That's all for today guys. Midnight has passed here. I should sleep. Bye now. :)

I'm on dilemma now. I really need opinion because I can't decide which is the best for me.

Read guys, which one I should buy?




or



I seriously can't choose one of both and it's really impossible to buy both (obviously lol).


Firstly I was like really in love with shuffle because of its tiny shape and its VoiceOver feature. And I'm about sure I can buy it by my self since its cheap enough for my pocket.

But then Apple released the new iPod nano, with a video camera and larger screen. Who the hell doesn't want that thing?!

I'm back on my first thought of choosing shuffle: I don't really need video feature on my music player. It's not really fun for me to watch videos on small screen (I mean, not as big as your pc monitor haha). And music player is really just to up my mood while doing something. You know, studying is better with music, and also writing, and others. I just need music on my life. That's all.


I dont really need video recorder on my music player.
And I don't have $149 to buy it.


Does it mean I better buy an iPod shuffle? Or I better nt buy any iPod and save it for rainy days? Blah me, I can't choose.

Have opinion, guys?

How many things I've missed on this LJ? I know I've missed many things as I also know that I got some other special things in different areas. It's like, get some, lose some. And, blah.


I really need to tell and may get any help from you all about the biggest problem on myself.
You know what, I NEVER CAN MANAGE MY TIME. TIME MANAGEMENT IS SOMETHING LIKE TRALALA THAT COULD MAKE ME SICK SOMEHOW.

How to manage the time well? So I won't feel that tired about everything I do everyday... Huufffm


Oh, anyway. I still have time until 11.00 p.m to edit the Journal layout. I'll try to fix this as best. Thank you so much for aqrima , the maker of layout I currently use, for helping me with stuffs :D

Bye then, xoxo

This should be y last entry before Ramadhan month come. Please wait. Im in hurry doing my essay task. Whut!redpenciled

Happy 46th Independence Day, Indonesia!

46 years being an independent country. It's not a small number, right? But I still hope Indonesia could be much better than now. :)

What I did today? Well, nothing much.

Woke up at 5. Take a bath. Ate my breakfast. Went to school.

At school: Independence day's flag ceremony, and some races. I didn't join any race outside but I stayed at class to decorate it. Yeah, there was a class decoration competition. I prefer to be on this and just support guys who on those outside races lol.

I was proud of my classmates who were being the ceremony officers. They were won the second place on Lomba Formasi Paskibra weeks ago and then being the ceremony officers as the reward. They're the best! Lovas! <3

Well okay, school ended at 11.30 am as I went home alone. Arrived at home, I slept at the couch as my dad and brother watched a Chinese movie I dunno hehe. I slept for about an hour and then prayed and changed my clothes.

Remembering today is exactly a year PATD held a concert at Jakarta, I took my LiC CD and watched it while eating my lunch. Boo, I miss them :( I hope there's a change to meet them someday.

Last activity, I went online for hours since about 3 hours ago haha. Just a while ago Ziqah gave a youtube link about Malaysian singer. She got a cute voice. Ziqqy said she remembers her of Lily Allen and Jason Mraz. But Yuna--the singer's name, remembers me of  Tika (and The Dessidents) and another Indonesian young singer. And you know, what I really love from Yuna is, SHE COVERED PETER PAN'S SONG TITLED KUKATAKAN DENGAN INDAH IN A VERY CUTE VERSION AND EVEN BETTER THAN THE REAL SONG LMAO!

Haha, this is my first time being in love to Malaysian singer. Lmao.

Got to go now guys. If you want, I'll give you the youtube link Zigah gave to me. Just give me comment, thanks! :)